January....

Some updates on my life.....

So, I have been Uber stressed out this month, trying so hard to find a job that pays well, is something I would enjoy, and can work around my schedule. Well, I haven't been ale to find anything! It has been so frustrating. And then, I found out that since I'm not starting classes until March, my financial aid doesn't get disbursed until then as well. FML. So, I had a chat with my dad filling him in on the situation. I was worried because I owe him around $500, which I was going to pay him with my aid money. He told me that it was okay that I couldn't pay him until March, and also said that he thought it would be better for me to not get a job, and to focus on Collin & his school work. Since I will get unemployment until mid-April, I do have some income. So that was a big relief, and even though my dad can be bat shit crazy at times and drive me up the walls, I really feel so fortunate for all the support he gives me.

I got Collin's progress report from his teacher, and he isn't doing so great. We've known this, but his teacher is recommending a second year of Kindergarten, because he is so young, she thinks that because he was only 4 at the start of the school year, his fine motor skills just aren't developed enough for him to write well. So I'm struggling with this idea, not because I'm feeling bad about him having to repeat K, but he has so many friends, I'm worried about the social aspect for him being left behind. So, Brian & I are going to try to work extra hard with him, to see if he can catch up.....

Something that also is helpful is that I finally have health insurance again! Yahoo! Now, the downside is that it's Medi-Cal, but I'll take what I can get. I was stressed that if I got hurt, I would have crazy medical bills, etc. I also got approved for foodstamps. Not something I want to exactly brag about, but, I qualify, and being in my situation, as a single mom, full time student, no job, I'm not too good for any extra help. I know that my situation is temporary, and that in a few years, I will be done with school, standing on my own two feet, and not needing any more assitance! It's nice cause it's just like a debit card, and I can use it at TJs, Costco, anywhere. $150 in free food a month will help me out sooo much! I wish I would have done it sooner! And then today, I got a letter in the mail from the State Student aid commission, saying I was awarded $15,000 grant for the school year for National University! I can't even express how amazing this news is! Because National is very expensive, for the three classes Im taking in March, the cost is $4,900, not including books.... I feel like things are finally starting to fall into place!

On the Shoe front... I guess things are going okay, but its really hard for me to let someone in, because I'm afraid of disappointment. So I'm trying to keep my expectations low, and just be patient. I am really smitten with, a certain pair of shoes, but I keep getting mixed signals, and I don't want to over analyze anything.... Trying to not be a crazy complicated girl is kinda tough... I want this pair to fit! Especially when there are Amazzzzzing Unicorns envolved!! :)

xoxox